As I close in on Week 27 of this pregnancy, my Pregnancy Mellow has all but disappeared. There are a few things I'm still chill about, but about most things I'm feeling a little frantic. The craziness at work is slowing down a little. A LITTLE! But it allowed me to take yesterday off so I could focus on the rest of my life for a minute. Here are some things that we've made progress on, and some that are still stressing me out.
Baby's Doctor -- I managed to call the doctor we want the baby to see and get the scoop on how to add him/her as a patient. If you're curious, it's as simple as scheduling an appointment for 5-7 days after birth. Both Mike and I are patients there already, so it's easy. After much thought, we decided to bring the baby to our family doctor rather than a pediatrician. This is mostly because we both LOVE our doctor, and she knows our situation, and she will take good care of our child. So would a pediatrician, but this way we're going somewhere we already feel great about.
Baby's Room -- We're getting much closer to finishing the paint job in the baby's room. You can read about it here. We made it our goal to finish painting by this weekend, and then we can start to set up furniture and put away some of the baby stuff we've already accumulated. If you clicked that link up there, you saw that we're also making slow progress on other parts of the house, which is also helping with my sanity.
Doula -- Yes, we hope to hire a doula. I'll probably write more about this later, but basically I was feeling a lot of anxiety about the hospital. I worried I'd feel out of control and out of the loop. That things would be done to and for me without my consent or knowledge or understanding. I worried I'd be sucked into the "routines" of the hospital without consideration for my individual situation and needs. We began to discuss and consider a doula, and I immediately felt my anxiety lessen. The mere thought of having an advocate and coach who knew what was up helped calm me. So we interviewed one candidate last week, and we'll meet another tomorrow, and then hopefully we'll be able to hire someone. Lots more information on this later because, though I know it doesn't make sense for everyone, it really feels like the right thing for us.
Appointments and Such -- I've been on the every-four-week-appointment schedule since week 10, but this time I'm only going 2.5 weeks between appointments. Looks like they'll be more frequent from now on. Today I had my glucose test for gestational diabetes. For anyone who hasn't done one, I assure you, it's easy. You drink some glucola, wait an hour, then do a typical blood draw. I'm awful at eating or drinking things I don't like, and I was actually a bit worried about getting through the glucola, especially when they told me I had only 5 minutes to do so. I opted for orange flavor, and besides being really sweet, it tasted fine. They keep it cold and it's less than a can of soda, maybe 8-10 ounces? Then you wait an hour (bring something to do - Mike came with me and we did some meal planning for the next few weeks), and finally a blood draw and you're done. I don't know the results yet.
Daycare -- I'm not sure what to say about this. We were long planning to have my mom watch the baby 2-3 days a week, so all we needed was part-time daycare. We were leaning toward a daycare center because we hadn't gotten any recommendations on in-home care, and it was too overwhelming to go through the state database of THOUSANDS of care providers. But now it turns out we'll need full-time care, and centers are way too expensive for our budget if that's the case. So we're desperately looking for a good in-home recommendation, one that is affordable and awesome. Unfortunately we know very few people who actually use daycare, so we're getting nowhere. Plus, I'm heartbroken that my baby, starting at six weeks, will be in daycare 8-10 hours a day everyday. I was happy to send it to facility a couple days a week because I knew the rest of the time it would be with my mom, someone who would love it as much as me and someone who would be in its life for a long time. The thought of going to work all day while my baby is at daycare, the thought of basically working to pay for the 'privelege' of not seeing my child...it's all just too much. My mom reads this, and so I don't say any of this to call her out or guilt her (she has very valid reasons for the decision), but rather to commiserate with mothers who have gone before me. How did you do it? How did you find good child care? How did you afford it? How did you deal emotionally?
Names -- This is still bugging me, though I've managed to take a little pressure off myself after conversations with Mike and with friends. But I'm still no closer to a boy's name I love than I was when I mentioned it last week.
Circumcision -- How do you even make this decision? I kind of wish we knew we were having a girl so we didn't have to think about it right now. This will probably make a good blog post on its own soon.
Maternity Leave -- I'm blessed to get six weeks off at full pay, but seriously? That is not enough. How can our country think six weeks is adequate when many other developed nations support several months, even a year or more, off? I'm glad for the time I'll get, but I'm trying to figure out how to go back to work when it's done without panicking. I want to work, I have to work, but so soon after the birth?
And just for fun, here's what I look like today: