Tuesday
Feb242009
Watch out, I may cry at any time (or cut you, that's just as likely)
Tuesday, February 24, 2009 at 09:18AM
Why am I so emotional lately? I'm happy and angry and sad all the time in rotating intervals. Everything is a potential trigger. I got choked up yesterday because the sun was out and it was so beautiful. Later I had to hide in the bathroom for awhile because I was severely raging over the ridiculousness of my slow computer and faulty internet. Things that normally just make me smile are putting lumps in my throat. Things that normally just annoy me are making me want to take a baseball bat to someone's car.
Yes, my first thought was, oh shit I'm pregnant.
But that's essentially impossible. I use double protection. So I immediately ruled that out, and I think it's a combination of a couple other things I've been doing recently.
1. I started taking my birth control continuously. For someone who never wants to be pregnant, the monthly period is such a waste. My body prepares itself to be pregnant every month, but I can't seem to convince it that it's never gonna happen. After 16 years, I finally decided I didn't want my period every month, and so I got on a mono-phasic pill (I was on a tri-phasic for seven years) and I've been trying to skip my period. It's been met with mixed results (I'll leave out the details for now), but I think the increased hormones without a break are maybe affecting my mood.
2. I stopped taking my Celexa recently. I maybe should have consulted a doctor about this decision, but instead I just went ahead and stopped. I've been feeling really great for a few months, and I didn't want to take an anti-depressant unnecessarily. I realized of course that maybe the reason I was feeling so great was the Celexa itself, so I didn't conciously decide to stop taking it. One day I forgot to take it in the morning. And the next week I forgot to take it twice. And soon I just stopped taking it altogether.
So yeah I increased my estrogen and progesterone at about the same time I stopped taking my anti-depressant. No wonder I'm a flaming mess of emotion.
It's definitely that and not a zygote. Right?
Yes, my first thought was, oh shit I'm pregnant.
But that's essentially impossible. I use double protection. So I immediately ruled that out, and I think it's a combination of a couple other things I've been doing recently.
1. I started taking my birth control continuously. For someone who never wants to be pregnant, the monthly period is such a waste. My body prepares itself to be pregnant every month, but I can't seem to convince it that it's never gonna happen. After 16 years, I finally decided I didn't want my period every month, and so I got on a mono-phasic pill (I was on a tri-phasic for seven years) and I've been trying to skip my period. It's been met with mixed results (I'll leave out the details for now), but I think the increased hormones without a break are maybe affecting my mood.
2. I stopped taking my Celexa recently. I maybe should have consulted a doctor about this decision, but instead I just went ahead and stopped. I've been feeling really great for a few months, and I didn't want to take an anti-depressant unnecessarily. I realized of course that maybe the reason I was feeling so great was the Celexa itself, so I didn't conciously decide to stop taking it. One day I forgot to take it in the morning. And the next week I forgot to take it twice. And soon I just stopped taking it altogether.
So yeah I increased my estrogen and progesterone at about the same time I stopped taking my anti-depressant. No wonder I'm a flaming mess of emotion.
It's definitely that and not a zygote. Right?
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Reader Comments (8)
Dang, that's a double wammy. I would venture to say that, yeah, that's a combo for resulting in an emotional uprising.
Ummm yeah...I would think that the combo of that would make you a mess. All my friends keep trying to go off anti-depressants, then realize they only thought they could because the meds were actually working :) But you've been on such a short time, and if you feel like going off, I think that is a good idea. Speaking from past experience, bc pills can really affect your emotions. Maybe you should try not skipping your periods for a little while until your body acclimates?
Good luck!
I'm not a doctor but I'd say you've hit the nail on the head.
I'm sure you are right, but I've known an inordinate amount of people who have gotten pregnant on birth control and even double protection, and one friend on three forms... condom, birth control (second month on), and a spermicide. Assuming she was telling the truth, it wouldn't be completely heard of. But seriously, I'm sure you are right though. :)
I always will think that things are a sign of pregnancy and then realize that it's not.
But you have two very compelling other reasons there that when combined present the perfect emotional storm.
It can be really dangerous to suddenly go off anti-depressant drugs - why not check in with your dr., just to be safe?
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