Retrospective, Part 3

This is Part 3 (and the final part) of my little retrospective. Now all my unpublished posts from that time are out there, and I'm so done with it! This one is slightly more upbeat than Part 1 or Part 2.

"A hair better" was originally written on 8/27/2008, over a month after the breakup.

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I got a haircut earlier this week. I think that’s a good sign. I usually go about two months between cuts, and my last one was in April! I was already long overdue when Brad moved out at the beginning of July, and things were getting out of control when he broke up with me two weeks later. Then of course I didn’t care about my hair. It was long enough to put in a ponytail by then, so that’s what I did most days. For weeks I didn’t care. I didn’t care enough to even make an appointment, I didn’t care enough to even think about making an appointment.

Recently everyone started asking me if I’m growing my hair out. That’s how long it has gotten – I officially look like I’m growing it out. So on Sunday I finally called. I finally cared enough to call. And I actually cared enough to keep the appointment. Which means I’m going to have to care enough to do something with it everyday. No more ponytails. I hope I can keep caring.

I’m not going to lie, I’m still not doing great. But I think haircut is good sign. I’m getting there.

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Despite the positive attitude, I remember specifically why I didn't post this. I wrote it on a good day , and I didn't want to publish it and jinx myself, so I thought I'd hold on to it until a few good days in a row had passed. The next day was a very bad day, and I ended up writing this instead.

So the positive attitude didn't last long. But I did manage to keep up with my hair. It hasn't seen a ponytail in five months!