Lifted
Thursday, November 6, 2008 at 10:28AM I went to my last counseling appointment yesterday evening. I was last there only a few weeks ago, and even then I was still wondering how I was going to get out of the mire. I felt better for sure, but I also felt like I had to work really hard at it. I worked every day to feel good, but I could remember a time when I was just happy without all the effort. I felt good without thinking about it and trying at it all the time. A few weeks ago I wondered if I would ever feel that way again.
Something happened since then. Maybe the Celexa took full effect, maybe the counseling helped, maybe enough time has passed, maybe all my "trying at it" paid off, or maybe it’s a combination of all those things. But I actually feel good. Happy even.
I’m in a good place with Brad too. We have emailed a few times and I think one day we might even be able to form some sort of friendship. I think we both feel good finally, and hopefully with enough time we’ll be able to figure out what it means to be friends after a break up. I still stand by my statement that Brad is too good a guy to not have in my life at all. Eventually I think we can figure it out.
After my appointment last night, I still had one more free session available to me. The counselor asked if I would like to schedule something and amazingly I said, "No I actually think I’m doing pretty well now." Long-term counseling would definitely not hurt, but since that’s not an option right now, I didn’t feel like the last session was necessary. I think I can do this on my own now.
(Except not really on my own. I still need the support of all of you – friends, family, readers – so don’t abandon me okay? You guys got me this far, for which I'm incredibly grateful, and I'm not done with you yet.)
Reader Comments (10)
There's also the option of a psychologist who'll do sliding scale - you pay according to how much you can afford. Where I live there's a provincial/state psychologist association that I called and they provided names of sliding scale psychologists who were accepting new patients.
Good luck!
Keep on keepin' on girl. You're doing well, and you deserve to be happy.
So happy to hear it! Yay!
So glad to hear things are looking up :)
I hope all my forcing you to come to Dinner Party helps.
i knew you could do it! Good for you. Very happy for you!
That is great news!
LOL!!! Today's banner is the 8-Ball. Guess you're not behind it anymore! Still, I love that you have that as one of your banner options.
YAY! That makes me smile :)
Awesome.