Not sure how that happened

Somehow it all came out of my mouth last night, I just said it all without even meaning to. And now he knows all that's been going through my head these last months. And now I have to make a decision: stay or leave. Him, not here. I'm stuck here til July regardless. Why can't you go backwards in relationships? Why can't you go back to being friends instead of always getting more serious and intense? Why does it have to be all or nothing? Why couldn't I just keep my mouth shut so I could figure this out later instead of right now?

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[sippycup]

Ugh ugh ugh.

I do not know. I hate, hate, hate that relationships have to get complicated. I used to think they didn't have to, if you had the right one, but that is crap, because they all do. There's no way they couldn't, that I can see. I also hate how actually being in love can be sort of irrelevant. (There was no way I was going to make that horrible song reference right then.) It's all dumb! I hope you make the best decision, whatever that is, and that you aren't, like, in a deeply horrible emotional state. Because you never can tell with these livejournals. :(

[doahleigh]

Thanks Linz. :) I'm not in a deeply horrible emotional state. I'm just mentally overloaded and can't concentrate on anything else. Glad you can at least relate to relationship issues. Blah. Congrats on graduating by the way!