Still cruisin’ along
Yesterday was two months. I’ve been single for two months. Feels like ten months and feels like ten minutes at the same time. Many of you have been really awesome about keeping in touch with me even when I don’t know what to write here anymore. So let’s start with that. Thank you. You guys seriously rock.
As far as everything else… well, it’s getting better. I’ve been on Celexa for a week, but I’m not sure how to know if it’s working. My aunt - a pharmacist - says even though full effects won’t happen for awhile, I should be able to tell if it’s going to work within a week. So I’m not really sure what to think because I feel about the same as I did a week ago. Not great, but tolerable.
It’s still a day-by-day thing. I woke up yesterday and for no reason felt great. I woke up today, after finally sleeping more than five hours, and felt crappy. Who knows, I don’t get it.
I’ve talked to Brad a little bit recently, and in some ways that’s really been helpful, and in other ways it makes it worse. I’m just kind of all over the place right now. I have no idea what I want, no idea what I’m doing, no idea what makes me feel good and what makes me feel bad, no idea what to think about anything. I’m confident this will pass, that eventually I’ll be a little more clear-headed. I just don’t know how long that will take. Anyone have a good guess? Please? Anyone?
In the meantime, here is my temporary fix to the extremely shitty past two months: I’m going on a cruise. This week. I leave Tuesday.
Yeah.
My friend Erica is a travel agent, and she called me a couple weeks ago to say that she had a great deal on a three-night cruise, she already reserved her spot, did I want to go with her. You should know that I have always wanted to go on a cruise. And you should also know that I didn’t have any money left in the travel budget this year. But it was such a good deal, and I need to get the hell out of here, and like Erica said to finally convince me… I deserve it. So I said yes.
I’m using vacation days that I wanted to save, and I’m putting the whole thing on my credit card that I otherwise never use, and I’m missing a week of classes so I’ve been killing myself the last two weeks trying to work ahead. But I’m recovering from a broken heart and a broken relationship, and I’m going to the Bahamas with a good friend, so screw everything else right? Right.
I’m actually really excited. So any tips from those of you who have cruised before on how to get the most out of my time?
September 21st, 2008 at 7:07 pm
Wow, what a FANTASTIC splurge! You SO deserve it! Where are you cruising? Please tell me it’s somewhere warm with even warmer water so you can just float in the middle of the ocean and not think about a single thing. Wow, I am stunned by this very un-Doahleigh-like turn of events!
September 21st, 2008 at 7:42 pm
AWESOME. And even if you have twinges of sadness while away (and you will), be secure in the knowledge that you’re experiencing them with a close friend, surrounded by beautiful scenery, delicious food, and (hopefully) amazing weather and luxury. I am jealous.
September 21st, 2008 at 9:12 pm
Ohhh so jealous! You DO deserve it! Enjoy it.
Never been on a cruise but I can offer a general vacation-ing piece of advice. Don’t spend your whole trip behind the camera, trying to take photos and capture every amazing sight. Be *in* the moment and experience and relish it then, for yourself, for every moment you have there.
September 21st, 2008 at 9:53 pm
Yay!!! Some salty water and rum punch is just what you need. Just spend your time NOT thinking about things. Just enjoy the spontaneity of it all!
September 22nd, 2008 at 9:28 am
Just go and enjoy!
You do deserve it, go have lots of fun and relax.
My cruisin’ tips would be: don’t be afraid to order more food, especially if you didn’t care for something or really want to try something. It’s a really fantastic opportunity to try new things. Explore. When you get off the boat, you don’t have to take the boat’s recommended tours. Lots of times there are locals waiting to be hired to do whatever you want to do. Research your destinations, see what each island is unique for, what they have to offer, and what’s good to see/do there.
Have a ton of fun & I want to hear about it when you get back!
September 22nd, 2008 at 11:04 am
Good for you! I hope you have a fantastic time. My coworker just returned from a cruise where she got a massage and drank fruity cocktails on a beach - my advice is to do anything that would make your coworkers/friends/classmates insanely jealous.
September 22nd, 2008 at 4:24 pm
I’m so glad you get to go on that cruise!
I have no pointers, but I do look forward to yours when you get back! Oh well, other than, enjoy yourself and have the best time ever!
Have fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
September 23rd, 2008 at 11:37 am
YES! I love that you are taking time to relax and have a great time.
I’ve never been on a cruise before but I hear they’re a ton of fun!
September 23rd, 2008 at 4:07 pm
This sounds fab! I’m so glad you’re getting out of there for a little while - it could be just what you need. Have a blast!
September 23rd, 2008 at 7:01 pm
I am so jealous. I just went through a breakup and am dealing with a broken heart too and if i had the money id be gone. I even applied to work on a cruise ship so i could disappear for awhile. Oh, and the anti-deperssants do help. If i wasnt currently on Wellbutrin id probably be more of a mess than usual.
September 24th, 2008 at 9:29 am
Have fun on the cruise!
As I said before, I take Celexa, and I still can have crappy moments. But I definitely felt a shift in the way I felt. The best way to describe it is, I no longer felt anymore moments of dread. I also felt like I was able to focus more clearly on and be more rational about anything that did bother me. It has helped my overall happiness, but I didn’t feel instantly happy.
I should say though, I did feel a difference the same day I started it. I’m not saying it wasn’t the placebo effect, it might have been. It seems like you would feel a little difference if it was the right one for you by now though.
I honestly think that I have a chemical imbalance, because of the drastic effects on me. So I’m not sure with someone who is taking it for situational reasons how it would effect them.
September 28th, 2008 at 9:47 pm
So….how was the trip??
October 5th, 2008 at 1:24 pm
I have never been on a cruise but would love to go. The idea of being taken care of the whole time sounds really lovely.