Stolen minute
I’m still here! I stole a minute of internet time before I go “home” and crash for the night. This week has been one of the most stressful and overwhelming of my life. I’m completely exhausted.
Number of “homes” I’ve had in the last week: 4
Number of times I’ve packed and unpacked crap from my car: ~16
Number of nights I’ve lost sleep from anxiety: 4
Number of times I’ve almost thrown up (literally gagging) from anxiety: ~18
Amount of food I’ve eaten in the last four days: very little (Why? the anxiety!)
Number of miles put on my car: lost track
Amount of gas wasted driving all over the state: don’t wanna talk about it
I got a job by the way, did I mention that? I was thrilled when I found out, but now I’m too fucking stressed out to even enjoy it. A new job, starting school and having nowhere to live for the first two weeks is more overwhelming than I anticipated. I try not to complain because I got what I wanted and eventually it might be enjoyable. But in the meantime, thank God for Brad. When I see him at the end of each day, I break down in his arms. This week has really tested us both, and I’m glad that we’ve turned to each other for strength and sanity rather than pushing each other away.
Okay my stolen minute is up. Hope you all are enjoying the end of summer!
August 30th, 2007 at 10:35 pm
hooray!!!!! for getting a job and having brad. someday you’ll look back on these days and go… remember when our lives were crazy and fun??? at least that’s what my grandma always tells me.
i’m glad that you are safe and stopped in to say so. stay sane! and congratulations!
August 30th, 2007 at 11:07 pm
Yikes! Sorry to hear about your anxiety! But yay for a job and yay for Brad!
August 31st, 2007 at 8:49 am
CONGRATS!!!!
Things will calm down. I have so been there.
August 31st, 2007 at 9:56 am
Glad to see you in my feed reader this morning! This means you’ve survived the move. I knew you would. And congrats on the new job. That’s terrific. You’ll be back to “normal” in no time. Then you can update more often, because truthfully, I’ve been going through Doahleigh withdrawals.
August 31st, 2007 at 10:45 am
Hoping and wishing your stress diminishes. Although, I’m sure, for that one last move, things will be a little crazy again.
I’m trying to convince my boss to let me go to this conference in GR around mid-October. Keeping my fingers crossed because you know what that would mean… =)
Hugs Shan. I hope everything begins to fall into place soon and you can relax.
August 31st, 2007 at 1:49 pm
hope that the stress is rounding its final corner!!
am so happy that everything is working out and woo hoo about the job and wow ~ it just makes me smile that its all going to be absolutely fine!!
yay for you and brad and all things normalizing in the best possible way : ) xox
September 2nd, 2007 at 1:57 pm
Hopefully the stress fades away to happy times for you and Brad. Congratulations on the new job!
September 2nd, 2007 at 7:11 pm
Wow, a new job already?! You’re awesome. Keep smiling, girl. You’re doing GREAT! Congrats!
September 2nd, 2007 at 9:48 pm
Sorry about your stress, praise Brad!