We’ve put the apartment search on hold. This weekend we found ourselves almost putting money down to hold a place we both loved, and we’re not even entirely sure that we’re both staying in Jackson right now. We’re not sure how much money each of us will be making this fall, and we’re not sure we even want an apartment. Yet we were inches away from handing over nonrefundable dollars! That’s when we knew we had gotten in too deep, too fast.

So we’re taking a break. And by break I mean that we still talk about it constantly and can’t stop thinking about it, but we’re not making any decisions until we know more about a secret element that I can’t mention just yet.

We’re considering all kinds of options now, trying to do what’s best for us financially and emotionally. What about buying a house? Maybe we should live seperately? Could we cram into a studio? And all that has only complicated the issue, making it impossible for us to even think straight anymore. When you’re swerving all over your brain, you can’t be expected to make important decisions, especially those involving money and shelter. Which is why the search is officially halted.

After all, you can’t really search when you don’t know what you’re searching for.