doahleigh - Holy Waste of Teabags!

Options for the near future (as in post-July):

1) Do another year as a VISTA at JCC. This means I’ll be in Jackson until August 2006. I like the position, hate the location.

2) Be a VISTA somewhere else. This means getting out of MI, but presents problems such as housing, etc.

3) Become an Americorps*NCCC Team Leader. This means getting out of MI and being committed until August 2006. I’d be living in Sacramento, Charleston SC, or Washington DC while traveling around to do various direct service projects.

4) Move to San Diego. I could be there as long or as briefly as I like. But I have no guarantees for decent employment, etc. However, I’d get to live with Robin and near Erica.

5) Apply frantically for jobs everywhere and take the first good one I get. Granted I get one at all.

I’m supposed to know what I’m doing by Friday so I can write my letter of intent to my VISTA supervisor. HELP! Any advice, thoughts, words of encouragement. You can be as biased as you want too. I just need opinions because I am incapable of making any life decisions without lots of input. Thank you my dear dear friends who put up with me!

Did everybody know there was a mini-TKHS reunion at the BOB this weekend? It was sorta impromptu, but it was a good time. Actually it was a bizarre night. Jason Schweitzer hung out with us (he lives in Ann Arbor and gave me a ride home this weekend, but we hadn’t seen each other in a long time). He ended up driving us (me, Robin and Emily) to our friend Jake’s house downtown because we really didn’t want to be in the car all the way back to Middleville. Then he had to sleep with me (as in next to me) so he could drive us back to our car in the morning. We also saw Lucas Holwerda. Remember how Robin dated him in high school? Yeah, so that was funny. Bill and Melissa (VanTil) Schilthroat were there too. I didn’t see them, but Robin did. They were with Noah Wenger, who I definitely saw, and I’m pretty sure I was talking about wanting to have sex with him.

Before we even made it into Crush though, Brandy had a frickin breakdown. She was crying and freaking out about having to wait in line. Suddenly she took off outside and we lost her. We called Josh who had to pack up the kids and search for her downtown for 2 hours. Turns out she got a police escort home after wandering around those 2 hours without a coat.

Also, apparently I finally made out with Robin, who also made out with my sister. And then I’m told that Emily and I did as well. Oh and I totally latched on to these three guys…Yarsh, Carlos and Vinz (aka: Michael) who lived in Chihuahua, Chihuahua and Cambodia respectively. Why were they in GR? No idea. So even though it initially took us forever to get a table or a drink and I thought the night was going to suck, it turned out to be a lot of fun. Thanks for a great time Robin! Let’s not do it again for awhile.*

After I finally crawled out of bed on Sunday, Jason picked me up to go back to Jackson/Ann Arbor. As soon as we took off, I said “Are you a good winter driver” because the roads were pretty bad. “The best, don’t worry.” Fifteen minutes later, I was laughing at him while we waited for the tow truck to come get us out of the ditch. Forty minutes later we were on the road again, and almost two and a half hours later we finally made it to Jackson. What is normally an hour and a half drive, suddenly became a three and half hour trip from hell. At least I was home in time for Desperate Housewives.

*Kristen, I called you Saturday night, I wanted to see you! What’s up? Lindsey, I need to get your number so I can call you next time.

Emily visited me this weekend. It was wonderful, she’s so great. We didn’t do much, but it’s nice to have fun doing nothing with someone. And it was such a relief to have company, I was going insane with isolation! We rented some movies, made a delicious dinner with Mary, took a walk on beautiful Saturday, and even went shopping. So it was a pretty good weekend. Thanks Em, I needed that.

I watched Psycho for the first time this weekend after Em left. I was scared to watch it alone, but turns out it’s not even that scary. Interesting though. I keep thinking I see that old dead skeletal lady everywhere though. So kinda creepy.

What are ya’ll doin for Valentine’s Day? Yay to those of you who answered nothing with me. Actually I’m hanging out with my ex-boyfriend, but not in a romantic way, so does it really count? Robin, I don’t wanna hear it.

Right now I feel the need to be in a place that nobody knows where I am. I get like this sometimes. When I was younger, I used to sit in the closet sometimes, and nobody knew I was there. Or even if I was at the store with my mom and sisters, I’d wander off to some aisle that was quiet and unoccupied by any other shoppers. Or I’d escape to other places at home or in public. I liked the feeling of being alone in a quiet still place that was otherwise surrounded by busy-ness. And I liked the idea that nobody knew I was there. That’s how I want to feel now. Instead I’m in my office where everyone knows where I am. Not even close. Anyone else ever feel like that?

Why am I so unmotivated all the time lately? I think it’s winter, but probably it’s something else. Laziness? Boredom? Loneliness? Suffocation?

What’s a good motivational exercise? Something to re-energize myself. Help!

(And no I don’t want to hear about beautiful weather in other states or anything like that because I’m stuck here until July one way or another. Don’t make me envious, make me motivated!)

Fucking fire alarm again. When did I move back into GK? At least I’m at work this time and don’t run the risk of the dreaded false-fire-alarm-while-in-the-shower-and-have-to-stand-outside-in-a-towel-with-shampoo-still-in-your-hair fiasco.

Have I ever mentioned how orgasmic Outback is? I swear if you get the chunky potato soup, bread, and the chicken griller you’ll have an orgasm. Just about anyway. For added pleasure try the Bloomin’ Onion. Also, steal bites of steak and/or ribs smothered in BBQ sauce from your dining partner.* I don’t recommend dessert because it will put you over the edge and you’ll be asked to leave for indecent public display (or whatever the proper code name is).

Saw Finding Neverland, which I enjoyed. Seeing Johnny Deep caused a repeat of the above reaction. Too bad these are only almost-orgasms. In need of a real one. Anyone? Anyone? Yeah…sorry.

*You will be stuffed to the point of illness, but it is worth it.

Here’s an example of my day:

On my lunch break I had to run to Best Buy. I was in a hurry, so I drove around the parking lot looking for the first open spot. Any spot. I didn’t care. Finally I found one and ran in. Approximately a minute and a half later when I came back out, EVERY SINGLE spot before my car was empty. I kid you not. I counted, there were twelve empty spots in my row that were closer to the store. I just laughed. It’s like everyone sat in their cars until I had parked, then cleared out all at once.

When I got back to work, some crazy lady in a huge green car was going in reverse down one of the rows. I thought she was backing into a spot at first, but it quickly became apparent that she intended to drive backward the entire length of the row. It also became apparent, at about the same time, that she didn’t see me. It was all I could do to back myself out of her path of destruction before she slammed into me!

However, I drove around with the window half way down today, so I’m smiling. See!